Silver Negus
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Posted: June 18 2010, 10:13 |
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Thanks for lovely message Malimber, things haven't been so good so I haven't been able to get in touch. Its nothing to do with tube.net dearest Mal, its just there are so many things going on in my life right now. My health is bad, I have palindromic rheumatism, and breathings not too good and to top it all off Ive lost three friend within one week and I'm feeling a little overwhelmed, confused and wondering what the hell happened, and what is it about me that's done this. To be honest i've come to conclusion that some types of people cant handle what my life is like so run off.- Firstly, I was close to having a close friendship/ relationship with a lovely gentleman who happened to be my ex-tutor. He is a very shy but very intelligent man and we were very similar in lots of ways. To cut a long story short there was a connection there we had developed a mutual friendship and later he said 'for what its worth' he'd like to keep in touch with me after the course etc and then unfortunately for me but fortunate for him he met someone else, who happens to look like me, is blonde like me is the same age as me. I was a little confused as to why our friendship dwindled, and he said he would find it 'awkward' because I was 'an ex-student', then when I said to him 'ok so does that mean youve decided you don't want to keep in touch he just crumpled and looked a bit sad, then I reminded him of some of the things he'd said to me and he crumpled again. Basically it seems like hes changed his mind, which is a shame because we liked eachother, and hes decided to continue his work ethic thing a bit overboard even though im an ex student, and hes formed a relationship recently with someone who resembles me.
Anyway second thing, as you can understand I was sad about losing this friendship so decided to talk to a female friend. This friend wasn't very appreciative and told me to 'leave her alone'. Which was unfair, because she's come to me with her issues plenty of times. So since she got nasty with me I text her back calling her a selfish girl who always attention seeks Ive noticed and for her never to contact me again. She told me about all her problems and when it came to me talking about mine for once, she couldn't handle it. I remember one time she asked me a few questions about my breathing illness whilst we were sitting watching a dvd, then upon answering her she said 'hmm ill have to rewind this again since the sadness....' as if id spoiled the film.
Another friend doesn't want anything more to do with me for such complex reasons it would take a millennium to explain. I'm just feeling a bit like what the hell have I done. But I haven't done much if anything to warrant losing 3 friends i the space of one week.
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